Another so-so day at work, speed up slightly by that "Friday feeling" I am finding it harder and harder to concentrate on single tasks, my mind wanders and before I have even navigated to the project folder or logged onto the server I am browsing, chatting, and doing my forum refreshing which is starting to borderline OCD : |

The last month has been quite stressful money wise. There is this company which I will call 'G' who I do some work for, they pay well, and as it is related to the work I am doing anyway so it is pretty easy and fun to do. It works out that the money you earn in month 1, you get in month 3, so it sits there in their account for a month while they check the work is all OK.

The first and second months payments came in fine, around £500 each, which was a great supplement to my normal monthly salary, The 3rd month however was VERY good, earning over 34 times the previous months amount, so as pay day approached I got very nervous, and it would turn out my nerves were justified.

Three weeks into the 4th month, with the massive earnings from the 3rd month sitting in their account there was a "glitch" and by the time it was sorted I had missed the end of month payment processing time and they are now saying that they will have to pay me at the end of THIS month, I wrote back saying that it was unacceptable, they then wrote back 2 days ago saying that they could not change their policies. So I wait.

Meanwhile earnings from the 4th month have been added on and its now closer to 43 times my first payments. So the stress of "will they won't they" is mounting, and I know I have 3+ weeks before I know if I'm going to be sitting pretty or shafted.

It's a strange thing, it would seem the promise of money is worse than not expecting a penny, and the more you are expecting, the worse it feels. Who would have thunk it! : ) The hardest part is trying not to spend it in your head, but when you are not busy, or you allow your mind to wander (the drive too and from work, the time in bed before you fall asleep) you go quite nuts thinking about it and getting all bitter.

While all this is going on the holiday I booked for wifey and me needed paying, so that has gone on the cards, and to top it all off it's our first wedding anniversary this weekend and all the cool things I thought of as gifts are now out of my reach, she is understanding, and knows what's going on, but I feel as if I have failed in a way. If I did not think I had this money I would have saved up some, but like a fool I spent what I did not have and now I have even less than I would have had if this money had never existed.

ANYWAY, turn a frown upside down, we are going to the redbull air race this Sunday, which looks like it will be a cracking day out, and will be something nice to do for our anniversary. And if I never see another payment from G, at least the holiday is paid off (well on credit) so no matter what we will be going ; )